Looking at the past or fearing my future, is not relating to my NOW God. Our relationship with God is only found in our present moment. Bold but true.
In the past I have looked at relationships as if my God was miserly. I felt the need to extract from them as much as I could as quick as I could, because surely the Hand of God was about to remove them.
We have relationship with God when we’re in the Will of God. And unless we are in that place (His Will) we can NOT be in true relationship with Jesus.