I might be an expert on this subject; I certainly have the knots on my head to prove it. I’ve sought love high and low, always with the greatest hopes. I have gone about it with great expectations and have often been turned away in utter despondence. Yet my grief has never quite quelled my hope-filled pursuits—my looking for love.
Looking for Love for Self
But let me reveal something about my quest. Though I have come open hearted in giving love, my love was not clean. Actually, what human love is? But where my love was sullied was in the fact that I responded to reaction. I focused on whether my love was reciprocated or rejected. Now again, what one of us doesn’t react like this? But here is the kicker: as a man of God, I am not to do so. God’s love is wide open and not gauged by response.
Well, you might say, how in the world am I to respond like that? I will tell you very clearly. When I love for love of Him, and not for love of a person, then I will be set free to love in actuality. Whoa! So you might ask, “John, are you saying my love for my brother is not about my love for my brother but love for my God?” Yes, that is exactly what I would have you ask . . . ha ha ha!
Looking for Love with Expectations
You see, if I love my brother, it will involve all my expectations. What it will not involve is God. But if my love is focused on God, then His love can pour out of me, and though it involves me, it will not entangle me. Another person’s response will not influence me because my love is for Him not them.
Now I know this is really mind-bending, but I believe I can love without being enmeshed. Most unloving, huh?! All the love we see on the screen, or in books, or wherever, is mostly codependent and based on SELF-love. It’s looking for love in all the wrong places. What I am talking about is a higher love.
The Power of Love
Now I am not saying I experience this all the time. I still find myself looking to people for a positive response, but this is also what makes me susceptible to attack. You wanna see my bulls-eye? If I give another the power to influence something so holy as love in me, then I am giving away the power of love. Love is so much more than just what response someone offers. Love is patient, Love is kind, Love doesn’t envy, Love doesn’t boast, Love isn’t proud, Love isn’t rude, Love isn’t self-seeking, Love isn’t easily angered, Love keeps no record of wrong, Love doesn’t delight in evil but rejoices in Truth, Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres—actually Love never fails because Love IS JESUS!
So I choose not to squelch the most powerful Force of the universe, either through my flawed ego or because of another’s receptivity. The Lord Jesus loved fully and totally THE FATHER, and therefore could be a clean vessel of that love towards any of His creation.
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!