In my last post, I focused on what the Holy Spirit was showing me in Romans 1 regarding complete accountability. When I read about the Oxford University study showing that people were predisposed to believe in the divine (particularly strong when children!), Romans 1 is the first place He took me. But a deeper understanding of our accountability was just the beginning. From there, the Spirit lit up the power of faith.
And it is after all only by faith that our minds accept as fact that the whole scheme of time and space was created by God’s command—that the world which we can see has come into being through principles which are invisible.
Hebrews 11:3 PHILLIPS
Invisible, yes, but not unknown! Once I saw just how inextricably tied we all are to the truth that God is GOD, it opened up some of what that means for my every interaction with others—and with God. It’s one thing to nod along to the truth that I’m a sinner, with a sin nature that cannot be cured, only replaced. As if I’m just some filthy vessel, sitting around, passively waiting to be cleaned. It’s quite another to see blazingly clear just how very active my unrighteousness is. Romans 1 is a detailed account of the aggressive nature of unrighteousness, and it’s like reading the scariest, saddest fairy tale ever. I wonder if Oscar Wilde used Romans 1 as a blueprint for The Picture of Dorian Gray…
On the other side of this seeing, I had an unusual response to the Lord: pure, unadulterated awe. It’s not uncommon for me to spend a great deal of time wailing and gnashing my teeth when I see my evil as God sees it, but that wasn’t the case this time. Instead, the Spirit used what I saw of my own humanity to show me the Father in living color.
Look at what He can do with a single divine Truth! My entire being was polluted with the very nature of God’s enemy, but the Father divinely implanted a grain of truth so that I would know Him. One Truth – God is GOD – against the whole of my being. The Truth that I aggressively hunted and suppressed (Rom. 1:18) whenever it rose up against the lies embedded in my every cell. A single Truth that would not, could not be destroyed, only silenced…and even then, only for a while. It gnawed at my very core, inescapable and tormenting.
Behold, all you [enemies of your own selves] who attempt to kindle your own fires [and work out your own plans of salvation], who surround and gird yourselves with momentary sparks, darts, and firebrands that you set aflame!—walk by the light of your self-made fire and of the sparks that you have kindled [for yourself, if you will]! But this shall you have from My hand: you shall lie down in grief and in torment.
Isaiah 50:11 AMP
If that verse doesn’t describe exactly who we are apart from God, and all that we do in order to crush the Truth and create our own reality, then I don’t know what does. God is absolutely unrelenting in His love and mercy, and utterly brilliant in how He deals with us. The source of our God-given torment is built in at our conception. Romans 1 is so clear on the progression of degradation that takes place when the Truth is denied. It’s equally clear on the solution to every moral failing possible: acknowledge the truth that is already known. God is GOD and He alone is worthy of praise and thanksgiving. THIS is the hidden battle waged in every human on the planet.
In light of all this, my faith is strengthened. “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen” (Heb. 11:1). Exactly! I’ve had a glimpse of the hidden battleground in my own life, and I refuse to despair any more over what my human eyes see of the lives of others. I don’t care how bad (or good!) things look, that’s not the whole story. I have never before seen God as so supremely GOD. Even the unrepentant carry His Truth, whether they want to or not! Who am I, who is ANYONE to stand in the way of His indomitable Love?