The second Facebook comment referenced in my initial post on Donne’s Batter My Heart said this: “I love it because to me it says, ‘God, whatever it takes for me to get to know You, I want it, because there’s nothing else that can satisfy my heart like You.’ I can’t explain it fully, but the desire to know Him is more intense than the desire to avoid suffering.” Suffering is a big word here. There is suffering in waiting, there is suffering when we don’t get our way, and there’s suffering when faced with the cross. This commenter makes a vital distinction…whatever it takes God, I want You more than I want to avoid suffering.
Do What It Takes to Batter My Heart to YOU
I believe this post is the last part of this series. “Do what it takes, God!” This prayer is very bold. It speaks of an abandoned response to meeting with our Eternal Bridegroom’s own pining for us, His Bride. And I don’t think this comes from some secret source of goodness residing under my left heart ventricle. I don’t have the desire to embrace suffering in and of myself. I don’t have the willingness to be overthrown, bent, blown, burnt, imprisoned, enthralled, ravished, and made new. Sure, I can arise to a desperation over my circumstance which calls out for help, but that commitment goes only as far as my next inconvenience without promise of resolution.
Desire: Do What It Takes
I know one thing about this commenter by what she wrote. God’s own Spirit infused her with that desire if it is her reality. We just don’t have that kind of commitment on our own. Unless He ravish me, enthrall me and bring me to Himself, I will never ever be His. I must be divorced from my enemy and united to my True Love. If I have desire, it is His own desire, and His own ability to bring me into such union. Though I wished there was goodness I could offer from me, the fact remains that He is the only sufficiency and all that I need. He is my Three-personed God. He is the Batterer of my heart. And He has set me free from the betrothal to my enemy, enthralling me unto Himself.
But if we are to share His glory, we must also share His suffering. Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory He will reveal to us later.