A New Year to Love

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In a little over two months, Shulamite Ministries is hosting a conference in Atlanta called “Love Reigns.” And before any of our conferences, there is a plowing that takes place, a spiritual preparation of sorts. As I say good-bye to 2013 and hello to 2014, the plowing has already begun – a New Year to love. My ideas and beliefs concerning love are being completely upended.

A-New-Year-to-LoveThe past year has been more ditch than mountain top for me, and oddly enough, I’m very grateful. It’s a gift to my relationship with God to have had such a regular and deep experience of HIM in the muddy trenches of my failure. I see now, more than ever, that there’s no mantra to chant or behavioral tricks to employ to avoid bottoming out. It’s God’s mercy that presses and prunes and chisels and sands me until only the truth is left: I can’t do what God asks me to do, and I can’t be what He requires me to be.

Now, this truth is only ugly to my pride. The biggest and hardest lesson for me in 2013 was that this truth is beautiful to my Father. He loves when I come to the end of my strength ­– my endurance, my knowledge, my humor, my temperament, my self-discipline, and all the rest – because then He’s free to move. Christ’s life is unhampered by my hideous striving. He can do what the Father asks, and BE what the Father requires. And my life becomes a miracle. I’ve learned that coming to the end of myself puts me in my Father’s realm. Literally. It’s not simply a nice thought, or some doctrinal truth, or Biblical theory. It has become my reality. That’s the gift of living in ditches.

And as the Lord begins demolishing – in earnest! – my so-called “knowledge” of what it means to love in preparation for the Spirit’s message, He is also giving me a glimpse of just how simple loving Him can be. I am forever wrestling with details, and making lists and then getting bogged down in the intricacies of this life. I’ve got a kind of spiritual checklist that I’ve used to track my progress. As humiliating as it is to write that, it’s even worse to live with it. Some days, I feel as if my relationship with God is an extreme juggling act (Surrender! Find His will! Obey His will! Be a child! Repent! Hear God’s voice! Read the Bible! Wake up early! Love others! Love GOD!), and I’m forever dropping the balls.

Well, the Holy Spirit just simplified everything for me, and I have cried over how clear it is that He knows me and loves me. He told me to ask Him one thing, and one thing only, every day: How can I love YOU today, Lord?

One thing – LOVE! What does it look like to love God today? How would You like me to love you today? It’s all about love, because God is LOVE. Every ditch brings me face to face with LOVE. Every mountain top fills me with the bliss of LOVE. And every day is a chance to learn something new about LOVE by walking with Him.

Look, I am about to do something new;
even now it is coming. Do you not see it?
Isaiah 43:19a HCSB

Comments:

Posted by Martha
January 1, 2014 at 4:03 pm

Jennifer, I too look forward to your post . What a beautiful gift to receive this first day of this new year. It speaks life. Bless you.

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Posted by Wanda
January 1, 2014 at 1:46 pm

He is not only the Lord of the mountains, He is also the Lord of the valleys. I am so grateful He is, because I spend a lot of time in those valleys. Thank you, Jennifer, for sharing your growth process with us. God bless you richly in the coming days. I love you

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Posted by Friend of Shulamite
January 1, 2014 at 11:59 am

Jennifer, what a perfect post to start the new year!I often miss God in my quest of “the deeper things” of the Christian faith but what the Lord has showed me is that I need a deeper, truer, real understanding of the plain teachings I objectively know and quickly quote and DONT actually know!!!
“And because you are sons, God has sent the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, crying, ‘Abba! Father!’ So you are no longer a slave, but a son, and if a son, then an heir through God.” -Gal. 4:6-7

Just the delight of a son in the Father by the Spirit of the Son in me. I love your words, “how would you like me to love you today?”

Thank you for sharing love through your honesty and transparency, I have grown quite fond of your posts because they are so raw and real.

In love.

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Posted by tina
January 1, 2014 at 11:28 am

Thank you Lord.

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Posted by Gaby
January 1, 2014 at 6:55 am

Jennifer, this is utterly beautiful.
And it reminds me of a fact my pride so often refuses to understand:
All real truth is simple!

Every child can comprehend!

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Posted by Sam
January 1, 2014 at 5:25 am

You know? I enjoyed this particular post like a gift to me.

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