For as the heavens are high above the earth, so great are His mercy and loving-kindness toward those who reverently and worshipfully fear Him.
As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.
Psalm 103:11-12 AMP
Only the Holy Spirit can walk out a paradox, and the whole Christian life is one big paradox: free will and an Omniscient God, judgment and mercy, loving your neighbors and hating evil. How do I live in audacious forgiveness, completely removed from my transgressions, while retaining the mercy and compassion that comes from knowing that “There but for the grace of God go I?” I can’t! Only the Holy Spirit can square that circle.
Waltzing through the Paradox
Only God knows what a heart needs when it needs it. Only God knows how to keep from snuffing the flickering wick. Only God can let fall His judgment on a person out of the deepest love and mercy. When I attempt to reason out a response to someone or some situation, I fall prey to the paradox that only the Spirit can dance through.
I know the fruit of the paradox. I AM that fruit! I felt the weight of God’s judgment and the heat of His wrath. I sat in the cold terror that KNOWS every blow is just and death is deserved. I know the wordless shock and gratitude that follows a stay of execution. I’ve known the miracle of being bathed in love and forgiveness when all seems lost. I didn’t meet God through human reason. I met Him in the paradox.
Embracing the Paradox
I don’t need to figure God out, I just need to be loved by Him and love Him back. The love of God envelopes every paradox and answers the unanswerable. I want to be in the flow of that love. I want to live out the adventure that accompanies God’s love everywhere it goes. I am so tired of the small and petty reasonings that cloud my mind, tripping over the divine mystery and profiting me nothing.
I love the paradox! When I live not knowing, every morning is Christmas morning, full of surprises and warm socks! I can live in the boundless wonder of the Holy Spirit, or I can try to square the circle and have nothing but doubt and disappointment. Put that way, is it even a choice?
I am Yahweh, that is My name;
I will not give My glory to another
or My praise to idols.
Isaiah 42:8 HCSB