Then the Lord answered Job out of the whirlwind and said:
Who is this that darkens counsel by words without knowledge?
Job 38:1-2 AMP
That would be me, Lord! I am ever “darkening counsel” by speaking without knowing what’s what. And some days, I resent it so much that I choke on it. Those are the days that I trip over God everywhere I go.
Some days, I can’t STAND not being God. It is nearly unbearable! People drive super slow when I’m in a hurry, and I’m unable to smite them. The internet connection slows to a crawl when I’m trying to watch a movie, and I’m unable change that with a mere snap of my fingers. Why won’t everything in the universe bow to what I want?! And then let me smite it?! So unfair.
I write this because today I had a violent meltdown (because I’m not God). I raged and cursed (because I’m not God), then felt ashamed and cried (because I’m not God). I can’t seem to get my life situated the way I want it (because I’m not God), and my whole foot is now black and blue from tripping over God every time I took a step.
Then along comes Job 38:1-2, and I am the one smitten. Like a kid pitching a fit in the middle of the grocery store, I am whisked outside and the boom is lowered. In all seriousness, I ask the question: What is wrong with me today?! And I hear: “Shall the one who contends with the Almighty correct Him?” Uh oh. “Who has preceded Me, that I should pay him? Everything under heaven is Mine.”
And just like that I see that my only problem is that I’m not God. And He is.
Oh, Jennifer. This post got me goosebumps and wet eyes. I think you are taking in (digesting, living out, absorbing) some invaluable eternal lessons out of His mighty hand.
This relates to everything in life: relationships, your own self, pain in the world, sin…
Love to your childlike heart!