As I pondered Sam’s comment on “Will of God and Spiritual Ambition” about John’s ministry to the Lord at Shulamite Ministries, I was reminded of Mark 9:35 NIV: “Sitting down, Jesus called the Twelve and said, ‘Anyone who wants to be first must be the very last, and the servant of all.’”
Obviously God’s concept of what it means to be “great” is a bit different from ours. Well, you know that Scripture and I know it too, and though I love it, I find it difficult each time I am asked to live it. It’s especially hard when being “the servant of all” isn’t my own decision but rather something that’s being forced on me by circumstances or, even worse, others’ abuse of authority.
Why is being a servant so difficult?
- It is the basic sin of mankind that we lust to “be like God.” So my very flesh is touched by the request to serve – and it starts fighting for its life.
- We might have a fully wrong idea about what it means to “be like God” in the first place.
In Watchman Nee’s writings (from Secrets to Spiritual Power), I found this remarkable quote: “Under the law, God requires man to work for Him. What, then, is being under grace? It denotes God working for man.” In the very core of His Character, God Almighty, Creator of the universe, is a SERVANT! And if we want to be like Him, we have to become…yes, servants!
So, let’s do it, let’s go for it, let’s serve! Only, there is one little problem left, and Nee brings it to light: “If we work for God, sin will reign over us; but if we let Him work for us, we rest in His victory.” Martha might say here, “This is simple, but not easy.” Ha!
God is the only true servant!
Serving has nothing to do with WHAT we do but only WHO will do it: God or me.
I can do the dishes and clean toilets to find people’s approval and only exalt myself. I can lead a whole congregation of thousands by receiving His Wisdom only, passing on His Life, and then people will see Him and not me.
Our Prayer House is called to be a very still place. And this is our biggest struggle. We all have to learn we cannot do anything for the Lord…and no one will see us. I myself have learned the hard way how easily I can get in His way. I don’t even need to DO much; it is enough for me to lack trust or faith in Him and so block His flow of Grace as I won’t let Him rule.
In fact, His offer is so simple: Just acknowledge you have nothing and receive as a child. It is all about just receiving.
Is this not worth a try?
But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory…
2 Corinthians 3:18 NASB