Not a Catch-All Drawer


Therefore Jesus answered and was saying to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, the Son can do nothing of Himself, unless it is something He sees the Father doing; for whatever the Father does, these things the Son also does in like manner.
John 5:19 NASB

“I can do nothing on My own initiative. As I hear, I judge; and My judgment is just, because I do not seek My own will, but the will of Him who sent Me.
John 5:30

“For I have come down from heaven, not to do My own will, but the will of Him who sent Me.
John 6:38

So Jesus said, “When you lift up the Son of Man, then you will know that I am He, and I do nothing on My own initiative, but I speak these things as the Father taught Me.
John 8:28

And He went a little beyond them, and fell on His face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; yet not as I will, but as You will.”
Matthew 26:39

In my testimony, I’ve described a process contingent on my ‘yes’ to God, yet it’s not been dependent on my strength to perform. I can’t WILL my way into His pleasure – remember, I’ve unsuccessfully tried that. And actually that was seeking my own pleasure anyway.  To carry the presence and ecstasy of God will cost us everything, and I do mean everything.

Look at the account of the Hebrews in the wilderness. The Lord’s presence didn’t rest on a Hebrew’s trunk being schlepped across the desert with a bunch of their possessions.  The Ark wasn’t a catch-all drawer, nor did it function like a mounted luggage carrier.  The Ark was dedicated and empty of all but what the Lord put in there.

What I’ve laid out in my last post is that this everything includes seeking satisfaction for self. Wow, that makes my knees weak! And all the while, I’m not Christ’s martyr in this process, even though it’s a work of the Cross. To live for Another’s ecstasy is to die to seeking your own. And though it doesn’t mean I am void of satisfaction, fulfillment or even the experience of ecstasy, it does mean my endless pursuit of satisfying myself is stymied.  Now, my attempts to self-satisfy sting and burn. Although I foolishly rush in, the substance gained for self now sours my stomach. I suppose my blanket yes to Him has ruined me for anything less.

Now, I say all the above with this in mind: to abandon self for God’s sake sets me in the position to receive His ecstasy. Yes, I’m a vessel created to contain His very own ecstasy. It’s my privilege to accept this precious Gift. The Spirit made me His vessel and He brings His ecstasy as He chooses. You see, even if I forsake my self for His pleasure, it doesn’t guarantee how He will manifest His satisfaction. I still am not in control!

But He said to them, “I have food to eat that you know nothing about.” “My food,” said Jesus, “is to do the will of Him who sent me and to finish His work.”
John 4:32, 34


Posted by Cindy Pollard
May 9, 2014 at 5:38 pm

Matthew 9. Jesus said to fast for the Bridegroom. If you do, He will not disappoint you.

Posted by Pauline
May 7, 2014 at 1:58 am

You had to be in a different realm when you wrote this, John — you were a shepherd for a time; now, the Lamb has captured you and His Spirit in you is quite evident. Bless you, John and thanks!

Posted by LA
May 6, 2014 at 11:12 am

Weeping with joy to hear the Truth! Thy Kingdom come, Lord Jesus

Posted by Irene
May 6, 2014 at 8:32 am

Empty. For the past few days this word, “empty” is all I see. Now in your words John, this is what moves me: “The Ark was dedicated and empty of all but what the Lord put in there.” Oh Precious Jesus, I come before You empty, I ask that You fill me.

    Posted by Wanda
    May 7, 2014 at 1:00 pm

    That is the exact phrase that lit up as I read. Thank you, John. Thank you Irene.

Posted by Tammy
May 6, 2014 at 7:07 am


Posted by Lynn
May 6, 2014 at 6:40 am

Thank you for being so transparent .

Posted by Sam
May 6, 2014 at 5:49 am

John, this is plainly amazing. I Love the Gift of Jesus Christ in you.


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