I Need No Man Being Beholden

I have learned, through much pain and difficulty that I need NO man. Now, I can’t say I haven’t looked for people to meet my needs, that would be a lie. But through my needing of man I have found that doing so causes me to leave my position of responsibility and abandon my God. When I surrender my need to another, looking to them to be my supply, I also give them my life and power in the bundle. To subject myself to any other in order to get my needs met, no matter how noble or godly my task, is ALWAYS a path of death. If I need you, you own me. I am relegated to your grace and willingness to be my supply rather than my true Supplier—GOD. Do you see how this can be a recipe for disaster?

Somehow when I need any other human, I open the door to their ravaging. I can’t tell you how many times in my life that I have witnessed this, or been involved in it. Dependence on anyone or anything other than God is just destructive. Now, does this mean He won’t use others in the meeting of my needs? Certainly not! I am not an island unto myself with God. But here is the catch. I am always looking to Him, even if He uses another to meet my need. When I feel dependent on you for any of my supply, I can know I am on the wrong ground. If I feel I can’t do it without you, I have left myself and God.

Really, I Need No Man

Let me give you an example of this. I wish this was a one time shot, but alas no. I have done this multiple times. When we started hiring web development firms to help us implement our sites and app, I often would become enmeshed with a sense of dependency on the very people I had hired to assist in the job. I believed I NEEDED them and felt tied to them to get the job done. But what I learned slowly is, they all were dispensable. God brought His choice to produce His results, but I needed only His Will not them. I needed no man.

This is crazy because firm after firm would convince me of their “secret sauce” to get our job done. And my belief in this made me a slave to their supply. And one after another would eventually abused this position I surrendered, and then used it against me. I ended up waiting longer than I should to get the job done, if it was done at all, paid more than I should to get the task accomplished or even agreed to pay, and I endured their abuse that I didn’t need to. I’m no victim, because my sin led to these results. I felt I needed them, and then they owned me. I was their sucker, and they took the place of God’s voice and Will in my choices. It was just sin! They abusively used the position I gave but I was the one who left God’s Voice and Will!

Long Story Short

What ended up happening is the Lord’s jealousy would come in and hit these evil unions, and then I would break the connection to follow Him and His Voice. The core problem here was my heart. I believed I needed them and that they were the ONLY ones who could get the job done. Unfortunately, getting the job done overrode my loyalty to God’s Will. I acquiesced, which means I accepted something reluctantly but without protest and the result was betrayal of my heart and my loyalty to God. Do you see how this position rightly put me into a bondage scenario? WE NEED NO MAN! What we do need is God and His Will as our Supplier.

Rollercoaster of Need

OK, here is the next loop on this rollercoaster ride. To simply survive by living to satisfy our needs, makes us whores to find a supplier. We become Gomers scratching only piddling scraps from life. By doing this we don’t live in the Abundant Supply afforded us by being a child of the King, we live as paupers.

So what is the answer? Life is not sustained through our needs fulfillment but only in the Will of God. We need only to be in His Will and then ALL our supply is provided. The Will of God is the great equalizer of life. It makes me utterly dependent on Him, seeking His face and Will about every situation. And in His Will I have great safety. But if I ever leave His Will to focus on my needs, I am sunk. I can be led like a bull with a ring in my nose to wherever another wishes to take me. It is really about allegiance and loyalty to God. If I am willing to trade my allegiance from my true SOURCE, I will reap a whirlwind of pain.

I Need What God Supplies

I need only what God supplies, and nothing else. This isn’t an easy position because the assault against our being in the Will of God is relentless. And when someone is offering to help us with our need, we can never abandon our volition. This doesn’t make us untrusting, it makes us clear and trustworthy. Our highest value is God’s Will above accomplishment, personal gain, or relationship. Again His Will is the safest place we can be, and we truly need no man.

P.S. Here is a little bonus clue: If I feel beholden* to any man, it just might be the Lord’s warning flag to me to check my heart. It just might be time to allow Him to release me from the noose around my neck. I choose, and He frees me from captivity.

be·hold·en: being under obligation for a favor or gift : INDEBTED, Owing thanks or having a duty to someone in return for help or a service, obliged; under a moral obligation.