Haranguing Self

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So in my last post, I showed how I am to own nothing. Ownership is God’s; stewardship is mine. I am only a simple steward of that which is in my possession.  My grasping ownership only prevents me from receiving from God what I need to live life. Gripping my possessions makes them susceptible to satanic attack and destruction.

So let’s take this to the next level: ME.  “Oh, this is the big one, Elizabeth” as Fred Sanford used to say. I am not my own.  I am not my own possession. I have been purchased by Another. Hence, I am only a steward of my life and body. He is supplying everything needed for me. My ownership of myself prevents me from open handedly receiving. I am owned, and not by me!

Haranguing Around

Haranguing No More
The only word that fits here is haranguing.  Anytime I hear that word, I see a brilliantly orange orangutan flailing about with his crazy wispy hair, long arms and big mouth. And shamefully, I must say this has been what I am towards John. When I refuse God’s ownership, the only way I can be a Christian is by haranguing self into order.  This is anxiety!

I’ve whaled on myself to make myself be right.  I have internally thrashed about with hopes I could do it. I have owned myself.  I left the stewardship responsibility and became a taskmaster. And the reward of this is a body wracked with stress and anxiety. Now, if I am the only one out there, I write this for me, but on the small chance that there happens to be another orangutan out there, here we go.

But the Lord replied to her by saying, Martha, Martha,
you are anxious and troubled about many things.

Luke 10:41 AMP

There is only one thing worth being concerned about.
Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.”
Luke 10:42 NLT

Haranguing No More

Haranguing Around
Christ Jesus from eternity past purchased John Enslow to be His own possession.  His possession! He put my life together, so I would choose Him. He wanted to own me. When I owned myself, I made a huge mess and destroyed the fibers of His property. Then I struggled about to fix my mess, to make it right. All the supplements and concoctions, gyrations and mantras, rituals and regiments could not put Humpty Dumpty back together again. Why would I think I could fix the broken life in the same way I broke it? Because I believed in that old broken system found in the flesh, self, old nature, Adamic life.

As surely as I live, says the Sovereign LORD, I take no pleasure in the death of wicked people. I only want them to turn from their wicked ways so they can live. Turn! Turn from your wickedness, O people of Israel! Why should you die?
Ezekiel 33:11

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Thank you John. I have found it challenging to get a hold of this because I feel so overly responsible! I need to rest in Jesus and gaze upon Him. This is a keeper!

It’s just as Tammy and Sandy say! Thank you!

This “orangutan” here can even speak “froggish”!!!! 😉 😉 And the images of them are almost as priceless as this series, John! I am absolutely in love it… You could just go on and on…

“I am not my own!” It’s a good thing too [speaking of myself]. I’ve tried living life as if I was…it wasn’t very pretty to say the least. And I was not the only one affected. Praise God for His ongoing grace! “Why would I think I could fix the broken life in the same way I broke it?” There were these two trees in the garden…sometimes we just know (or think we know) too much. Luke 10:41&42. His word clarifies it all, doesn’t it. Bless you John. Even when I am not led to respond I am always blessed,… Read more »

This word was very helpful in a situation I had to deal with last night. In the middle of my anxiety and resulting “control” the Lord reminded me of this word and how I had permission to just release it all. I was able to see a deeper level of fear and it works in my relationships.

Harangue. There’s a word I have not heard in a long time. Since I am reading this blog on my iPad, I tap the word to get the pop-up definition: to lecture someone at length in an aggressive and critical manner. Bingo! Repentance, Holy Spirit, give me repentance, for I find I cannot even change my direction without You. John, thank you for sharing your true heart. I eagerly look forward to your posts and Jennifer’s too, because Jesus is teaching me so much through your writings. I am re-reading Martha’s booklet on repentance (for the 4th time). I continue… Read more »

Thank you!! That’s so funny the orange orangutan. I get amazed at our huge faith in that old man.

(Martha has been now talking on this issue for a month now through “Manna in the Morning.”)