Juiced That Sucker Off


John Enslow's Juiced Off FingerAs you might have heard on the first CD of the “Reign of the Kingdom” series, I had a dramatic encounter with God during my recovery from juicing off the end of my finger. Yeah, I accidently juiced off the end of my index finger on my left hand.  It was a shocking event that has become very holy to me.  As Martha can attest, I walked in a supernatural grace all the way through this situation.  I drove myself to the hospital, I went through the two surgeries needed to rebuild my finger, and survived the weeks of pain and recovery with joy and peace inexplicable. So how can I call this incident holy? Because of what God revealed to me through it.

Funny thing about the whole encounter, I didn’t know all that the Lord had done until I was preparing for that message. Christ Himself entered into a place of deep fear in my heart to worship the Father in that dark space.

As I had developed bitterness with God during my childhood, mostly for not performing as I would have liked, I also became a deeply fearful person.  I’m wondering now how linked fear and bitterness are? Well, I was afraid of death in everything. My life was marked with fear.  And illness and injury particularly terrified me, because they all lead to death, right? I didn’t have God in this place of fear; I was just paralyzed in it. This area was a deep hole of darkness where Satan had the right to torment me. But God in His wonderful wisdom knew just how to address this.  Christ entered my dark place of fear and explosively worshiped the Father in it.  This has blown my mind! There was no worship of the Father in this area of my life and this incident with my finger gave Him entrance to fill it with His Light.

You see, it wasn’t comfort that I needed, it was the Light of His Worship. It completely involved me, but it wasn’t about me.  The focus wasn’t my finger, it was worship of the Father. I would’ve directed God to get me out of pain and heal me quickly, but what transpired was the bursting forth of the Son’s worship of the Father in that dark place.  Humanly this is so counterintuitive, but it has changed my perspective on my entire passion to be touched by God.

Next I’m going to tell you what I’ve been learning since then about intimacy with the Father.

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[…] that way. You were removed from what was going on. (J) I was removed from the whole situation with my finger, and it was like I was looking at myself in the situation. (M) Umhmm. I wasn’t even looking at […]

[…] beloved Kirk made a comment on my last post and referenced this verse.  This is exactly what happened during my finger […]

brother kirk
9 years ago

John, your story and His lesson in this is for a life time and beyond. this reminds me of the following verse, 2 Peter 1:19
Amplified ” and we have the prophetic word made firmer still. You will do well to pay close attention to it as to a lamp shining in a dismal squalid and dark place , until the day breaks through the gloom and the Morning Star rises (comes into being) in your hearts.”

9 years ago
Reply to  brother kirk

WOW Kirk, that is an absolutely dead on verse. Fits perfectly. Thank you !

Cindy Pollard
9 years ago

Letting God enter your fear with Himself. Wow! That’s complete transparency.

9 years ago

“It completely involved me, but it wasn’t about me. “. What a sublime perspective.

9 years ago
Reply to  Irene

Yes, Irene I agree.

9 years ago
Reply to  Irene

Yes…”the Son’s worship of the Father.” Perfected Worship.

9 years ago

Father I surrender the places of fear in my heart that gives Satan permission to torment me and keeps me from Your life, love and freedom. I receive the seed of Your truth and trust You to bring to fruition Your work in me and in all who read this message.

9 years ago

Hi John!

First…YUCK! Just had to get that out of the way. Sure reminds me to be more aware of where my parts are when processing/juicing, etc.

“…but it has changed my perspective on my entire passion to be touched by God. Next…”
I can hardly wait for the unfolding!!!!!!