Being focused and intent on what God has for ME is not selfish. In fact, it is necessary for a life of adventure! So let’s talk about how to be on self in an obedient way.
I wonder what destiny God has for ME?
I don’t want what you have from God. I bless you in it! That’s awesome, and I am often really encouraged or spiritually fed by what God has given others. But at the end of the day, I want what God has for ME. THAT is what I’m pursuing.
The God of the Universe dreamed me before ever the world was formed. In that, I am unique, and uniquely His. God has plans for me, good plans! He promised that (Jer. 29:11). His plans for me are not the same as His plans for you. I want what’s mine, and not what you have even if what you have is spectacular. My Creator formed me in my mother’s womb for a purpose and destiny, and I desperately want to know what that is!
I wonder what knowledge of Himself God has for ME?
There are books and books and MORE books filled with truly wondrous revelation of the person of God. And I love that! God has used the personal testimony of many saints to give me a closer glimpse of His character, His mind, and most importantly, His great heart. But above all the timeless knowledge of God that others have published, I want what God has for me specifically. What does God want to tell ME about Himself? What is vital to my relationship with Him, to the destiny He chose for me? THAT is what I want to know.
Envy Can’t Take Root When I Want What God Has for ME!
In prioritizing what is spiritually mine, envy has a hard time taking root in my heart. For instance, I love Martha and John. The life that God has given them is awe-inspiring. Each has a deep and real and passionate relationship with Jesus Christ and an impactful ministry worldwide. But when I look at who they are and what they have in the Lord, I don’t feel envy. I feel hunger. I’m hungry for MY OWN deep relationship with Jesus. I’m hungry for MY OWN calling and ministry. How can I envy the life of John or the life of Martha when I’ve been given the life of Jennifer?! Even with an entire universe of people already in the pipeline of creation, God still dreamed me. He had good reason to do so and I’m hungry for every last bit and bobble He’s got for me. God’s love is personal! Even when He’s showering it on a whole church, He STILL makes it personal. And when I’m hungry for what God has for ME, I’m loving Him just as personally.
I want what God has for ME. Don’t you want what He has for you? God is infinitely creative; it’s Satan who lives in the tired cliché and creative retread. It’s Satan who whispers that blessings are finite and must be contested. Don’t listen to that lie. You don’t need what someone else has, nor should you be remotely satisfied to want it. Cry out for all that God has for YOU!
The Lord has made everything [to accommodate itself and contribute] to its own end and His own purpose—even the wicked [are fitted for their role] for the day of calamity and evil.
Proverbs 16:4 AMPC