I have chosen to lean, trust and confidently rely on Him and not me! I’m perpetually in the process of learning to wait for His defining of ALL situations. But there is a block to this. If I ever come to any situation with my thoughts or feelings rather than inquiring of Him. This extends even to asking Him, “Is this what You mean?” rather than questioning “What are You saying?” The former is still coming laden with MY thoughts, even if they relate to His.
It’s coming with hands full, looking for His confirmation. That is not leaning. To “lean” is to go completely empty, looking for His filling. It’s coming with NO opinions, no thoughts and no strength, just empty and waiting.
My Thoughts versus God’s
So often I have come to the table with a cornucopia of thoughts and opinion. But unless I am willing to come, having released them all, I can’t receive from the Lord. Empty is the only position to receive, because God will not make mixture.
But I could say, “I don’t want to come empty. It is too vulnerable. It’s scary!” Yes, it is. To trust and completely rely on someone else, even God, is to be very naked. Why do you think Adam and Eve clothed themselves? When they chose the Tree of Knowledge, the rift was made and their vulnerability was created. Prior to their choice to separate their thoughts from God’s, they were not exposed. His thoughts covered them COMPLETELY. We have to again choose to receive His covering.
Refusing to Know My Thoughts
It is a choice for the lifetime habit of refusing to know. It is like a muscle we have to strengthen. And unfortunately, the atrophying of self-will takes time. We must be willing to wait and be silent. But what stands opposed is our obsession to KNOW. I personally am deciding to never know again.
You know the relational phrase,
“You can be RIGHT or you can be happy,
but you can’t be BOTH.”
Well, I would like to rephrase that for relating to God,
“You can KNOW or you can know Him,
but you can’t have BOTH.”
When we lust to know in our Adamic nature, God has no compulsion to fight our free will. If we prefer our knowledge over His, He will let us coddle our thoughts. But the result of this stance is death and isolation.
The Secret of My Thoughts
There is a secret here. You will never know the opinions you have to abandon without being in touch with your heart. So you can’t even come empty without being aware of your own heart. Feeling what you feel and knowing what you are feeling. We have to know our personal barrier to God’s choice, and then be willing to relinquish it. This is impossible without heart connection.
In Shakespeare’s Hamlet, Polonius says, “To thine own self be true.” This is part of the process. You must come to the Lord in the truth about what you feel, relinquishing it as meaningless, and accept His Truth as the only reality. But unless you know what is in your heart, you have nothing to lay down. We all have stuff to lay aside. To “blink out” that which festers there only causes blindness not liberation. It costs you everything but in return, you get Him.
Everything is geared toward our “learning to wait for His defining of ALL situations.” This is where we come to know our heart, & His Heart. How amazing, that He would want to take us into His innermost thoughts. To ‘know'(!) is the lie of ‘self-satisfaction’, that is in fact dissatisfaction; it’s an emptiness that falls in on itself. Oh, God has set things, that we might crumble into His Love. Only an open & touchable heart can relinquish a claim laid against it. Forsake all else & follow Him. To bring my heart to God, as it is, this… Read more »
“It’s too good to be true”?! It’s so Good it IS TRUE! All He says, HE IS. Everything must be brought to the light…& there, it’s grip is gone…& we are free to see. The thing I think ‘I know’, & the thing I didn’t want to say…neither pride nor guilt are clothing. You can see right through them. True thought IS LIGHT! not opinion-ed ‘knowing’ sent to assault truth. Everything will be seen for what it is. (Lk.12TPT) “For the facade is falling down..” “If you don’t hold back, but freely declare in public that I am the Son… Read more »
So clear!
Wow, the “His thoughts covered them COMPLETELY”……….. statement I never saw this, the reason they had to cover themselves with fig leaves, they chose to “know something” rather than be covered with the knowledge of HIM. Thank you, may I chose to allow the Holy Spirit to. show what’s in my heart that I may hear and see the LORD more and lay it all down to lean on HIS breast!!!!
Forever grateful!!!!!
Clothed in His thoughts…. I set my will in surrender to Him to make it so. Thank you, John.
Bless you! Isn’t that an amazing thought, to be clothed in His thoughts? I heard that one when I was praying about this message. God knows just how to say it doesn’t He.
Thank you, John!
❤️??
As I read each sentence, I just felt like crying! This is so soul-disturbing and life-giving! Self-will is just so empty!!! How terrible it is to be trapped in it! I cry out for Him! I do want HIM!
I choose also to “never know again” thanks John
I second that!
Yes yes yes yes….
“You can KNOW or you can know Him,
but you can’t do BOTH.”
This is a timely word of The Lord. Thank you!