Leaning Life – Anxiety Free


OK, so I have rooted around in the fire to see that anxiety is thinking apart from God.  That anxiety is making laws to support my wayward thoughts. And I suffer from the due guilt for such a path. So how do I get off the rails on this crazy train?

I am learning to lean. It appears to be a life-long lesson.  I can tell you that I am transformed from the hysterical man I once was, but the Lord is looking for more.  As I stated I have been anxious most of my life.  The Lord is looking for an eradication of any fear, doubt, worries and anxiety. He wants me to live leaning.

In my first post about anxiety, True Confessions, I spoke of Brother Lawrence and John the disciple.  I believe Brother Lawrence called the place of leaning, Practicing the Presence of God.  And he describes this place as “the bosom of God, for the inexpressible sweetness which I taste and experience there.” Brother Lawrence also reveals his peace and freedom from anxiety in leaning. Oh, his book makes me hungry to walk unsullied by anxiety.

Experiencing Leaning

Let me tell you an experience I had one day.  Martha and I were visiting missionaries in Honduras, and I had the opportunity to sit alone on a porch in a paradise.  Not only was I in a lush tropical farm, but I was also experiencing stillness at my core.  I just wept as I realized that this was not where I daily lived. And I think it was an experience given to me by God to know there was a place I could go.  The vibration in my chest was gone for an hour or so.  I had NO anxiety. What a blessed place!

So what does the scripture say about leaning? Well the Amplified Bible defines faith like this: “leaning of the entire human personality on God in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness.”

So is anxiety just the antithesis of this? I believe so!  Anxiety is just the leaning of the entire personality on myself, trusting confidently in my power, wisdom and goodness. Laid out like this, I see completely why the body is ravaged with fear.  As I said, like a meth addict, hulled out and left void.

Jesus said He trusted Himself to NO man but “I” trust myself. Oops!  He said, there is none good but One, but “I” believe my knowledge will suffice to bring about goodness. Yikes!

So here is the resolve: lean, trust and confidently rely on Him, not me! I have to wait for His defining of ALL situations. And the solution, HIM!

In my next post I will state what this looks like.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to Him,
and He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV


Posted by Barb
August 15, 2013 at 5:35 pm


Posted by Tina
August 1, 2013 at 11:15 pm

The timing of this was in great detail. Yesterday, I was driving with my infant grandson and ponder the undercurrent of anxiety that I became aware had been my state all day and John’s message yesterday. Concerns about the health of one of my adult children and a sense of dramatic changes coming upon me (again) came to the surface. I asked the Spirit for the Father’s perspective and I was able to remember that my children also have a cross to bear and I must stand in grace and faith not fear for them, believing that their cross will lead them to know God. Then I began to sing Prov. 3:5-6 to my grandson and my faith soared as I pondered many possible trials and crosses ahead. I determined to believe God, period.
This morning I started to read today’s blog and received a phone call with news of a major loss that will bring about change. This is a repeated cross that I have faced with roots of great fear since childhood. This time I hardly felt a twinge of fear. I responded with faith and love and have not wavered.
After the call I read the blog and was very encouraged. Before I even got to the end I recalled the time of preparation yesterday and began to sing Prov. 3:5-6 again. I them scrolled down to the end and saw the same scripture. What wonderful grace and confirmation that God is with me, He is victorious and I can completely rest in Him!

Posted by Pauline
August 1, 2013 at 10:09 pm

That sounds like the “little” child Jesus calls us to be. Reminded me, also, of “Rees Howells Intercessor”–and how the Holy Spirit had to keep ‘pulling him through’ time and time again in the early years of his surrender, to let go of money, the love of man, appetite, his own child, etc. for the purposes of God. Talk about trusting! I love Christ’s humility in you, John [the Lamb of God, “shorn”]. Thank you for bringing His Light!

Posted by Sam
August 1, 2013 at 3:50 pm


Posted by Sandy
August 1, 2013 at 1:30 pm

These words are gold… Proverbs3:5,6 have been a precious word to me since early on in my life so I’m very interested to hear what you have to say…

Posted by Stephen
August 1, 2013 at 1:04 pm

“Not only was I in a lush tropical farm, but I was also experiencing stillness at my core. I just wept as I realized that this was not where I daily lived. And I think it was an experience given to me by God to know there was a place I could go. The vibration in my chest was gone for an hour or so. I had NO anxiety. What a blessed place!”

I want to learn to run to that place of stillness at my core, and NO ANXIETY in any situation! We can understand that Jesus will never leave or forsake us, but do we really believe, in the middle of the storm, that His Power is there to act in our own behalf at that time!
Thank you for your post John!

Posted by Susan
August 1, 2013 at 8:45 am

And let’s not forget the dastardly sin of unbelief. Good post John.


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