You know, service can sometimes make us feel less than beautiful. I know it has happened to me. I get completely focused and fixated on the doing and can loose myself. And in this losing I can feel less than attractive. But there is someone Who’s eye is on me who does still find me lovely—He calls me dark yet lovely.
Dark Yet LOVELY?
Recently I have been working on several things that have been required. It isn’t that they were optional, they were my responsibility to maintain and I did them well. But with day in and day out responsibilities we can sometimes feel more like a drone than a beauty to behold. Ask any responsible full-time mom…after a day with the kids and household chores, does she find herself stunning? Accomplished maybe, but gorgeous, probably not. Work can sometimes make us feel less than attractive.
So I asked the Father about this. Ultimately it is His eyes that I want to see smiling at me. And He gave me a scripture in the Song of Songs about being Dark yet LOVELY! It is a perfect representation of carrying a taxing responsibility and finding yourself a little lost.
Jerusalem maidens, in this twilight darkness I know I am so unworthy—so in need.
Yet you are so lovely!
I feel as dark and dry as the desert tents of the wandering nomads.
Yet you are so lovely—like the fine linen tapestry hanging in the Holy Place.
My Strenuous Service
Being dark yet lovely! My Shepherd-King finds me lovely even in my strenuous service. Even when I feel like I am beneath the waves of responsibilities, He is looking at my heart. This poor maiden felt a little ugly and less than because she had worked her stepbrother’s vineyards and left hers abandoned. Yep, she had worked so hard on jobs, and neglected herself…sound familiar?
[Please] do not look at me, [she said, for] I am swarthy. [I have worked out] in the sun and it has left its mark upon me. My stepbrothers were angry with me, and they made me keeper of the vineyards; but my own vineyard [my complexion] I have not kept.
Song of Solomon 1:5b-6 AMPC
As with my last post, I don’t necessarily have an answer for this dilemma, I just know Who the answer is. No, I don’t need to abandon self-care but life happens and the reality is, we sometimes find ourselves lost in our responsibilities. We can work so hard for others until we look at our own garden and see we’ve neglected it.
Listen, my radiant one—if you ever lose sight of me, just follow in my footsteps where I lead my lovers. Come with your burdens and cares. Come to the place near the sanctuary of my shepherds. My dearest one, let me tell you how I see you—you are so thrilling to me.
Song of Songs 1:8-9a TPT