Today I want to touch on a delusion, before proceeding to something amazing. It’s a brief stop and it’s something I have alluded to in my past posts. I just want to address it again because I think it’s not as uncommon as I would hope it to be. It’s a relational error that leaves souls in disillusionment and despair. I wish I could say I never tromped through these woods, but I can’t.
So all the countless days of my seeking to be loved by God simply increased my frustration. It’s one thing to be a young believer and look for proof of His love, but it’s quite another to be a mature Christian and stay in that position! I was trying to lead in my relationship with God. Then I started looking from this perspective: I’ll seek to love Jesus and let Him deal with His side of the relationship.
Well quite frankly, if God had let me have my way, I would’ve been ruined. If I were to be the focus of God’s and my relationship, I would be the GOD. Oops! This would’ve been my undoing and a complete disservice to me. Yes, “We love Him because He first loved us.” (1 Jn. 4:19), but if God had bowed to my demands to be the centrality, it would have destroyed me, because I was created to love and worship Him.
I believe there are countless souls looking for Christ to enter a soulish relationship with them. Yet intimacy with Christ is different than simple human fantasies of romance, and its certainly not ME-centered. So then I look at how Christ had intimacy with His Father. Clearly, He had the most intimate relationship with God of any person ever to walk this earth. Jesus gave free access for the Father to live His life and will through Him. This is so much higher than a spooning snuggle before bed. And they had unhindered communion in the will of the Father, not mere mental assent through human reasoning and study. In saying this, I am not inferring that relationship with the Father is in any way cold or calculated. I believe the reality is anything but clinical. It’s just higher than simple earthly stakes.
I thought, “But Jesus was God, of course He was close to the Father!” And amazingly, we have been given the indwelling Spirit to have the chance to be in that same union. Christ came to earth to be our Solution for the separation we created, and then He left the Spirit to make us one, as He and the Father are one (Ephesians 2:18). We can have intimacy with the Father through the Holy Spirit who lives in our bodies, counsels our actions and reveals our hearts. Intimacy is union, holiness, surrender, yielding, and commonality. Not that the Father doesn’t touch our physical bodies, but because that was my idol and focus, I believe He withheld it from me. His Spirit has touched me many times and in many ways, comforting at times and frightening on others, but it’s all been by His initiation. He’s the lead in our dance and must always be.