Am I Full of Joy in My Suffering?

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Moreover [let us also be full of joy now!] let us exult and triumph in our troubles and rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that pressure and affliction and hardship produce patient and unswerving endurance.
Romans 5:3 AMPC

It’s one thing to mentally assent to and even accept God’s greater purpose for my life. I see His sovereign hand everywhere in my life. But it’s something else entirely to live believing that God’s plans for me are truly for my good (Jer. 29:11). My lack of joy in suffering reveals my unbelief in both God’s goodness and His love.

Full of Joy in Suffering

Full of Joy in Suffering
The word ‘suffering’ covers a lot of ground. I suffer when people mock me. I suffer when people hate me. I suffer when people reject me. I suffer when I get sick or physically hurt. I suffer when a problem arises and no solution presents itself. I suffer when I am given a task that is beyond my capability. Life is full of suffering, especially when your heart is open and vulnerable. And if I belong to Jesus, shouldn’t I be as full of joy as my life is full of suffering?

I have experienced the inexplicable joy of Christ Himself at times when circumstances warranted a more somber reaction. I know what it is to be full of joy when I should be weeping. I take no credit for that; it’s grace, pure and simple. But as with everything in this life, revelations through grace still have to be lived out in order to be made reality. That’s the basis of maturing spiritually.

Full of Joy from Surrender

Full of Joy from Surrender
I take up my cross daily in the ongoing surrender to my life as it unfolds. Being full of joy in the midst of my suffering is only possible for my new creation. Suffering tempts me to put on my old rags and fight for my life. Whether I’m defending myself against mean people or scheming to find a way out of a daunting situation, I’m trying to save my life. But every time I take that path – that big, broad, heavily traveled path – I’m no longer following Jesus. Surrendering to the pain of the moment and receiving it as from God’s own hand? That’s the cross that ushers in the life and joy of Christ.

Simply saying, “I choose to surrender to this, Lord!” and then willing yourself into some facsimile of ‘joy’ is not what I’m talking about here. That road leads nowhere you want to go. I know because I’ve walked it. It isn’t obedience to suppress your honest heart response and put on a happy face while calling it grace. Waving a white flag while loading a gun doesn’t count as actual surrender. We’ve got to acknowledge the hurt or anger or fear we feel, and then take every last bit of it captive to Christ. That’s surrender. And I can never be genuinely full of joy without it.

Comments:

Posted by Pauline
October 21, 2016 at 9:42 pm

Jennifer, this is going to sound like a stupid question but after we acknowledge the hurt or anger or fear we feel, how exactly do we take every bit of it captive to Christ?
Thank you.

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    Posted by Jennifer
    October 22, 2016 at 10:44 am

    That’s not at all a stupid question, Pauline! I think that surrender is probably as unique in its application as every personal relationship with the Lord. For me, it involves telling the Lord where I am in my heart about a situation (angry, hurt, offended, afraid, etc.). He already knows, but pouring it out to Him usually results in my seeing something about the situation (and my response to it) that I didn’t see before. Then I have a choice: Him or me (which is death). I can let go and forgive and have Him, or I can hold on and say that my hurt/anger/fear is worth more than Him. Sometimes I have to hurl it at His feet a few times. It’s a work to take hold of every thought and feeling and give it to Jesus, to refuse to nurse it and indulge it. But that’s what taking it captive means to me. I do hope this helps to clarify it for you, Pauline. I bless you!

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      Posted by Pauline
      October 24, 2016 at 6:27 pm

      Oh, I appreciate that so much, Jen. I know the verse; can quote it and hear those around me say it but no one ever mentions the “how”. . . so it’s been kind of vague until now.
      May the blessing come back to you in great measure!
      Love.

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Posted by Douglas
October 21, 2016 at 2:05 pm

Apples of gold in imagery of silver, Is the word spoken at its fit times. [Young’s Literal Trans.]

Your recent ‘series’ has been like this, Jennifer. Thank you for letting God speak this way through your own surrender.

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Posted by jp
October 21, 2016 at 8:26 am

Thank you for baring your heart, as God is teaching me how to bare mine…
Thank you for your surrender, as God is teaching me how to surrender…
Thank you for loving, as God is teaching me how to love…
Bless you Jennifer

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